i know that you always wanted me to write. you said it was my calling. you said it was my gift. i said there are so many others who are much better at it than i am.
you said it didn’t matter. you said that no one else can tell my story for me. it had to be me. so here i am. telling my story one piece at a time. to anyone who would take the time to listen.
I miss you, mom.
Love always,
“Pookie”
***These letters make more sense if you start from the beginning… or at least as far back as I’ve been able to share for now, so I’ve added a list of the posts in order for convenience. Over time, I will be filling in more of the gaps as I’m able to find and organize the pieces.
Thank you for your patience with me.***
- 7 June 2019: I learned the Charleston.
- 20 December 2019: I was a match.
- 25 February 2020: Close to you.
- 9 March 2020: It’s transplant day #1
- 13 March 2020: It’s been 6 months with him.
- 16 March 2020: I was selfish.
- 19 March 2020: We celebrated.
- 19 April 2020: It’s been 1 month since the transplant.
- 22 September 2020: I really need to talk to you.
- 23 September 2020: We hurried onto a plane.
- 25 September 2020: Your last lullaby.
- 28 September 2020: I have an unheard voicemail.
- 29 September 2020: It’s been a rough week.
- 30 September 2020: I spoke at your funeral.
- 30 September 2020: Inadvertent birth announcement.
- 1 October 2020: We drove back home.
- 2 October 2020: I remembered my prayer.
- 4 October 2020: We went to church.
- 5 October 2020: I cried a few times
- 6 October 2020: I drank tea from your mug today.
- 7 October 2020: I took a baby-bump selfie.
- 8 October 2020: I got a phone call.
- 11 October 2020: I overstayed my welcome.
- 13 October 2020: I had a bad dream.
- 15 October 2020: She saw her move.
- 18 October 2020: I carved a pumpkin.
- 19 October 2020: We started singing in the car again.
- 21 October 2020: It’s Dad’s birthday.
- 26 October 2020: I checked the mail.
- 1 November 2020: Visiting hours are over.
- 2 November 2020: I have decisions to make.
- 16 November 2020: I was alone.
- 17 November 2020: I dreamed about you again.
- 19 November 2020: I’m finally going to marry that redheaded boy.
- 21 November 2020: It’s the big day.
- 15 December 2020: It’s my 1st birthday without you.
- 17 December 2020: I am a mom worth loving.
- 19 January 2021: I’m gonna swing from the chandelier.
- 28 January 2021: I painted a teensy tiny picture.
- 1 February 2021: I broke down.
- 19 February 2021: I watched it rain.
- 23 February 2021: “It’s showtime.”
- 8 March 2021: It’s your birthday.
- 4 April 2021: No Easter bunny this year.
- 10 April 2021: I heard you.
- 6 May 2021: I looked up.
- 11 July 2021: I got baptized in the ocean.
- 19 July 2021: We visited you today.
- 11 October 2021: I needed to be shaken and stirred.
- 29 November 2021: I’m laying it down.
- 18 December 2021: It’s happening.
- 9 January 2022: I took you for granted.
Kaleidoscopic Grace 